A Few More Details

NY Guy and I spent A LOT of time together in our first week after meeting. Basically every night was a sleepover. But before you start up with the high fives and/or "whore!" catcalls, you should know that only one of those nights did anything even remotely sexual happen, and even that didn't make it to completion because we were both exhausted. Just plenty of making out and holding otherwise.

So yeah, it's going good. Not perfect necessarily. I can't say if he's the one, but I'm definitely willing to explore the potential here. We have similar interests in monogamous, take-it-slow style relationships (a stark contrast to some of the first-night hook-up action I'd fallen into lately), but there's plenty that we don't have in common, too. He's more of a partier, which is OK, he'll help me break out of my stay-at-home-alone rut, but he also isn't quite as responsible as me. There was one drunken night where I basically fought with him to leave a nightclub, and that was not fun at all. He also has that bit of a bad boy streak in his past, though he's mostly getting over it.

I have had my usual flashes of insecurity as well. We seem to have gotten pretty comfortable with each other pretty quickly; we haven't had any sleepovers this week as we return somewhat to the routine of our lives. Still calling and communicating daily, but the initial excitement of exploring and learning about each other has subsided, leaving me to wonder sometimes, does he still like me? Is he losing interest? Or are we just that comfortable with each other already that the interest is implied? I blame some of that doubt on the last few guys I've crushed on, who decided to declare their lack of interest by not saying a word and leaving me hanging (and moping).

We're definitely not to the "boyfriend" stage yet; we'll see if we ever even get there. This whole building a relationship process can take its emotional toll, but so can being alone. I'm hoping this'll work out, mostly because I really don't want to start all over again.